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2020- WHAT A YEAR.

... WHAT IS SUCCESS? ...

I FIGURED THAT OUT FOR MYSELF THIS YEAR.

IN THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR MY HUSBAND AND I WERE STILL IN SAN FRANCISCO, FEELING THE CONSTANT CHURNING PSYCHIC JUNK THAT IS CITY LIFE.  CONSIDERING EVENTUALLY MOVING SOUTH.

I WAS WORKING FROM MY STUDIO AT HOME.

I EXPERIMENTED WITH BRINGING BEADS, RHINESTONES, COSTUME JEWELRY, YARN AND HEAVY TEXTURE INTO MY MIXED MEDIA COLLAGES.

AND AT THE BEGINNING OF QUARANTINE I EXPERIMENTED WITH A NEW PAINTING STYLE.

FRANKLY, THOUGH, I WAS VISCIOUSLY DEPRESSED.

I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO DIE,

I CONSIDERED CHECKING MYSELF INTO THE HOSPITAL.

IN JULY WE BOUGHT AN AIRSTREAM TRAILER, HAD IT TOWED ONTO OUT 40 ACRES OF DESERT PARADISE, AND BEGAN OUR TRANSITION TO OFF-GRID DESERT LIVING- WHAT A RELIEF!

 

AND WITHOUT A STUDIO, I TOOK THE OPPORTUNITY TO ENJOY A MENTAL RESET AFTER TEN YEARS OF TOTAL BURNOUT FROM

THE PRESSURES OF CITY LIFE.  

AS I WAIT FOR MY ART STUDIO TO BE CONSTRUCTED, I WAS ABLE TO RE-CONSTRUCT A VAST, REFRESHING UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT SUCCESS MEANS TO ME-

I'D BEEN BOUND UP BY 'EXPECTATIONS' OF MYSELF, BOTH FROM MYSELF AND FROM THE CULTURE.

SUCCESS, TO ME,

MEANS PEACEFULNESS.

SUCCESS MEANS

CREATING FOR THE JOY OF CREATION ITSELF.

 

SUCCESS MEANS

GIVING YOURSELF THE SPACE

FOR BIG NEW IDEAS TO COME TOGETHER,

SUCCESS MEANS MELTING INTO PATIENCE AND SMILING EVERY SINGLE DAY.

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OFF GRID IN THE DESERT,

I FINALLY GOT AROUND TO MAKING MUSICAL ART.

I WROTE, COMPOSED, RECORDED AND RELEASED MY FIRST EVER ALBUM

*SENSE OF IMPENDING DAWN*

UNDER THE MONIKER

*GOLDEN EVIL*

PIONEERTOWN HAS BEEN GOOD TO ME.

I SMILE EVERY SINGLE DAY.

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